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2 years ago
it just happened
he broke up with me. this morning 2:04 am.is it crazy for me to remeber that i dont know. he did it not because i was a bad girlfriend, not becausesomething happened between us, but just cus it wasnt working out. we saw each other every four months. our relationship had beeen a phone relationship pretty much. he said “we never really got to know each other in person and this year with ur IB tests and my AP shitt ii dont think its gunna happen. we try making it happen soo hard but i cant take it anymore. all of our fights are about this. and even if we have a great day when everything goes perfect i hang up and hate myself because im so mad that i cant see you and hold you and be able to love you in person. that hate that i get affects me and my grades. ive jst been winging my way through life adn i cant do that anymore. everytime i cant see you i end up just venting all that anger back out on you. and u cry and i listen and inside i cry. how can i do this to her? to the girl i love? im not a good boyfreind. and you knwo that. u can do better than me. u are so amazing, beautiful, just everything, but i havent treated you like the amazing girl you are. ive had so many things going through my head and i just i cant do this. the last figth we had uu told mee uu ddnt want me to leave you. u know i was going to do it the last time we fought because i needed to. i had to. but i waited because it made you happy. and what makes u happy makes me happy. and all those times that month i said i love you or anythign i meant it. i promise. its just now ii gotta do what makes me happy too. ur amazingg. but me not being able to see you kills me inside. it hurts me. i just cant do it and its been affecting our relationship especially when i was gunna come see you on ur brithday but it ddnt work out. i cant let my anger for this long distance relationship affect me any longer. im just done. i still care about you more than anything, mroe than anyone. shit u know more about mee than my own sister and i am always here for you always.its just right now i cant handle a girlfriend. i cant handle crying inside over not being able to see you, over figting with you and making me cry over the same reason every time.. its just not wokring out..” am i allwoed to cry for that? i knew it wud happen someday. one day just ddnt knwo when. i kept trying to make it happen but looking back on itt i guess he had a point. part of mee just understands him and hwat he had to say because when we fight over that i feel the same way. i want to see him and it hurst not to, yet part of me just wants to screaaaaaaam insdie just let it all outtt. AHHHHHHHHHHHHSDAKFH LDAKFHLSAKDHFLKSDAHFASDHFKLJSDAHFLKJSDAHFLSHDALFHDSAJFH LSKDAHF LKSAHFJLKSADHFA!!!!!!!! but is itt reasonable to scream. nothing wrong happened between us, it was such a reasonable reason. i feel like i knew it wud happen. and the worst part is we are stil friends. best friends. well thats not bad. thats good i want him in my lifee but i just want him to be something else not my best friend. some wud say i am with him cu zi wanted a boyfriend. but no. there really is a difference to boyfreind and best friend. and hopefully everything will work out as friends i guess. itss just guna take me awhile to get over. i dont know.everythign was just so calmly settled out. he was soo nicee. he was there for me. yet in the end im still hurt. crazy hurt but yet i knew what was coming. chroniclee of a fucking break up foretold.. wow i am such a nerd.
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2 years ago
need those lace shorts
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Notes: 2 / 2 years ago
bonquiqui :)
myy lifee goal=memorize thisss hehe
bonquiqui: my mic is a queen so listen to me sing, he wants a number 3 with a side of onion rings he can come out the house with no ankle bracelet on but he got two strikes so don’t get his order wrong you know im looking cute and there’s nothin you can say but if you get with me, we can do it your way HAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!
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Notes: 223 / 2 years ago from kari-shma
(via mariehochhaus)
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Notes: 419 / 2 years ago from poeticporkchop (originally from doctorplease)
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Notes: 626 / 2 years ago from kari-shma (originally from taste-bud)
Kiwi in a bowl (via mr. Ingard Jensen (waits for spring))
nom.
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Notes: 1 / 2 years ago
ROLLIEPOLIE HUNTING!!!!
my wonderful sunday morning: wake up. scream because i just realize i have to search for stupid rollie pollies. goo on an adventuree with priaaankaaa in her back yard, see a bunch of worms and think about just getting worms and dressing them up in rollie pollie outfits, drive to english springs park with a big fat ax in our hands and dig up like half the park, have old women stare at us and think we are weiiird, see a really cutee baby and think about stealing her and dressing her up in a rollie pollie suit, call my boyfriend whose theory is that even if i do find rollie pollies ima scare any rollie pollie i find away and since i live on a hill, they all gunna roll down away from meee (WTF!!!!), stop at every single CRACK in the side walk and search, call every single indian in chino hillsss to help findd these stupid bugs and right whennn we though rollie polllies were offficialyy EXTINCT SUPPERDINKAAAY comes to the resccue. i currnelty have eight rollie pollies. i think this is officially the happiest moment of my life…………….. wow im pathetic.lol
woooooow im pathetic.
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2 years ago"our love is like a butterfly that flutters the way my heart does every time i see you"- lauuusuuuu’s boooobooobear ahahahaa <33
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Notes: 201 / 2 years ago from kari-shma
SLEEPING SON: Ricardo, the son of Tegucigalpa’s Mayor Ricardo Alvarez, slept as his father was sworn in for a second mandate at La Libertad square in Comayaguela, Honduras, on Monday. Incoming Honduran leader Porfirio Lobo, who attended the ceremony, took office on Wednesday, following controversial November elections. (Orlando Sierra/AFP/Getty Images) | via:
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awww
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Notes: 563 / 2 years ago from kari-shma
3years 6months 14days (via matsutake.)
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